Rachel Uchitel looked back on a painful period in her life on Wednesday as she commemorated the 23rd anniversary of the September 11 attacks on the World Trade Center.

The 49-year-old podcast host, who infamously was outed as Tiger Woods’ former mistress, paid tribute to her late fiancé James Andrew O’Grady, who was 𝓀𝒾𝓁𝓁ed when 2 World Trade Center collapsed on the morning of September 11, 2001.

’23 years ago, I lost the love of my life, Andy O’Grady,’ Uchitel began the caption of her Instagram post, which featured an emotional video featuring footage from shortly after the terrorist attack.

Uchitel was only 26 in the video, which showed her holding missing posters featuring her fallen fiancé smiling face, which contrasted with her shellshocked demeanor.

‘This is my fiancé. I’d planned my whole future out with this person,’ she said while trying to hold back tears.

Rachel Uchitel, 49, commemorated the 23rd anniversary of the 9/11 attacks and remembered her late fiancé Andy O’Grady, who was 𝓀𝒾𝓁𝓁ed when 2 World Trade Center collapsed; pictured in 2014

’23 years ago, I lost the love of my life, Andy O’Grady,’ Uchitel began the caption of her Instagram post, which featured an emotional video featuring footage from shortly after the terrorist attack

‘If I don’t find him, I have to start all over again. It’s taken my whole life to find him,’ she continued as tears began to fall. ‘And I don’t know what I will do without him.’

After a pause, she looked down at her fliers and continued: ‘Please, please help me find him.’

Then Uchitel included the famous New York Post cover that featured a sobbing photo of her taken at the same time as she clutched her missing fliers.

‘New York’s Tragic Face,’ read the headline.

But she concluded the video by putting Andy front and center. He showed off a winning smiling in sweet photos taken years before his death, including cute pictures of Rachel and him together.

The video, which was soundtracked with heartwrenching piano music, concluded with simple text featuring his name and life span: ‘May 9th 1969 – Sept. 11th 2001.’

O’Grady, a New Jersey native, was a competitive swimmer for UCLA from 1988 to 1991, and he ascended to become co-captain of the swim team in his final year, before staying on an extra year as a grad assistant.

After college, he headed back to the East Coast and worked as managing director at the investment banking firm Sandler O’Neill & Partners, which had an office on the 104th floor of 2 World Trade Center.

Andy and Rachel had only gotten engaged on August 5, 2001, and they had planned to tie the knot on May 4, 2002, according to the Los Angeles Times.

O’Grady had only been at his office for 45 minutes when the first plane hit 1 World Trade Center.

‘If I don’t find him, I have to start all over again. It’s taken my whole life to find him,’ she continued as tears began to fall. ‘And I don’t know what I will do without him’

Uchitel’s sobbing face was later used for a famous New York Post cover. She concluded her video with smiling images of Andy

His building would be hit 17 minutes later, but it would be the first to collapse.

In her Instagram caption, Uchitel recalled having to watch the footage of the towers being hit as part of her job with Bloomberg News.

After his death, Uchitel recalled calling him shortly after the first plane hit the World Trade Center, and he told her that no one was being evacuated from the building at the time.

Things were more dire when she called him later that morning.

‘Rachel, it’s really chaotic here,’ she recalled him saying. ‘You don’t understand. I just saw somebody jump out the window.’

In her Instagram caption, she wrote: ‘I remember watching his building fall and not being able to catch my breath. I remember the whole news room floor got silent. They had all just watched me watch Andy die.’

Although she and others stayed hopeful that he could have somehow survive, she could see that there was ‘no hope.’

‘The despair of not knowing was beyond words,’ she added.

‘This event changed who I was completely. I had searched for the man who was “my one” all my life and I had finally found him and we were planning our wedding, and then this..,’ Uchitel continued.

He was a competitive swimmer at UCLA who moved back to the East Coast to work as managing director at the investment banking firm Sandler O’Neill & Partners, which had an office on the 104th floor of 2 World Trade Center

Uchitel previously said she spoke to O’Grady on the phone multiple times after the first plane crashed into the World Trade Center

‘It was the honor of my life to have been loved by James Andrew O’Grady,’ Uchitel concluded. ‘I am thankful that because of the photo that ran on the cover of almost every paper in the world of me searching for him, more people know his name’; seen in 2010

She added that she could still remember Andy’s ‘smile’ and ‘voice’ to this day.

Rachel shared that the video of her searching for Andy had been shot outside Bellevue Hospital, as she had rushed there after hearing that he might have been taken there alive.

‘I can see the pain that I have never been able to get rid of still in this video, because of how wonderful this man was,’ she wrote. ‘I remember the amazing outpouring of letters and calls from complete strangers after this photo ran in papers across the world.

‘It was the honor of my life to have been loved by James Andrew O’Grady,’ Uchitel concluded. ‘I am thankful that because of the photo that ran on the cover of almost every paper in the world of me searching for him, more people know his name.’